my piano exam

really headache when the piano exam came nearer and nearer..
i can't really sleep at night...
thinking about the exam...
thinking about the scales...
the pieces....
lastly...
aural.....

that day arrived....
i went 1 hour earlier....
cause the transport can't make it at 11.00..
i saw some candidates...
crying....
i was really scared that time...
really...
feel like want to cry....
there was 1 friend of mine was there too..
when she came out from the room...
she smile at me....
and she said the examiner very good...
i feel relax that moment....

when i went in to the room...
do you know what i see...
the examiner was a man!!!!!!!!!
my heart sinks...
although my sister say before that a male examiner very nice 1...
i play...
when i play...
i feel like want to cry...
the very first time i was scared in exam...
i saw the examiner was quite shock when he saw my face..
tears are running in my eyes...

at the end of the exam..
the examiner kindly greeted me...
and he say that i was lucky...
maybe he was saying that i pass with 100...

went out to the lobby...
i call my sister....
i talked about my exam to her...
while we were talking...
i cry....
silently....
cause there are a lot of people there watching me...
i really scared that i will fail....
it is the sadest day in my life...
i cry so much that day....

jeanezz~